Yet I don't have it in me.
I don't have the words.
I read blogs that cut straight to my heart.....eloquent, convicting.
I wish I was that writer...because I have so much to say.
I have been trying to say it for the 365 days Victoria's been home.
Look at my previous posts.
I have tried, but unless you can see into my heart you really can't know.
She has changed me
They ALL have changed me
Life is hard
And my biggest wish for you readers is that you could experience this hard life.
Not so you will say, "Wow....how do you do it!"
No, not that at all.
I want you to experience this hard life so that you can also be immeasurably changed and incredibly blessed.
So that you, too, can find the real meaning in life when you are called by God.
When you push down the fear and the excuses and you rely wholly on Him.
Hidden in the diaper changes and the therapies.
The hospitalizations and the worries.
The fears. The sleepless nights...
you find Joy and Peace.
That friends, is my prayer for you.
It was one year ago today that we walked out of the orphanage with Victoria.
What you don't know....what you can't know....is how very close she was to dying. How can a child be 8 years old and only weigh 9 pounds...how?
Her skin was sallow
Her eyes were hollow
She barely moved
She had so much dark hair on her legs and arms and back (the bodies defense when extremely malnourished)
Maybe you are tired of hearing about it.
I'm sorry if you are.
I wish she was the only one.
I wish I could forget about the ones who still wait.
The ones who will die waiting.
I wish I could UNSEE.
I wish you COULD see.
The reality is most of these children will not be adopted.
Most of them will die.
Share these children......speak up.
Support a foster family
Support an adopting family.
Life is challenging for adoptive and foster families.
Don't forget about us, though we smile and say it's ok.
It is easier to say we are fine...then to explain.
You can't adopt?
You can't foster?
Find a family in your community ...adopt that family!
Adoption of all kinds makes ALL the difference!