“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9

Saturday, December 10, 2016

Life: 365

I so much wanted this blog post to be meaningful
life changing
powerful ......
Yet I don't have it in me.
I don't have the words.

I read blogs that cut straight to my heart.....eloquent, convicting.
I wish I was that writer...because I have so much to say.
I have been trying to say it for the 365 days Victoria's been home.
Look at my previous posts.
I have tried, but unless you can see into my heart you really can't know.

She has changed me

They ALL have changed me

Life is hard
And my biggest wish for you readers is that you could experience this hard life.
Not so you will say, "Wow....how do you do it!"
No, not that at all.
I want you to experience this hard life so that you can also be immeasurably changed and incredibly blessed.
So that you, too, can find the real meaning in life when you are called by God.
When you push down the fear and the excuses and you rely wholly on Him.

And then.
And then...

Hidden in the diaper changes and the therapies.
The hospitalizations and the worries.
The fears. The sleepless nights...
you find Joy and Peace.
That friends, is my prayer for you.

It was one year ago today that we walked out of the orphanage with Victoria.

But you know her story...I have told it.
What you don't know....what you can't know....is how very close she was to dying.  How can a child be 8 years old and only weigh 9 pounds...how?

Her skin was sallow
Her eyes were hollow
She barely moved
She had so much dark hair on her legs and arms and back (the bodies defense when extremely malnourished)
Maybe you are tired of hearing about it.
I'm sorry if you are.

I wish she was the only one.
I wish I could forget about the ones who still wait.
The ones who will die waiting.
I wish I could UNSEE.
I wish you COULD see.


The reality is most of these children will not be adopted.
Most of them will die.
Share these children......speak up.

Support a foster family
Support an adopting family.

Life is challenging for adoptive and foster families.
Don't forget about us, though we smile and say it's ok.
It is easier to say we are fine...then to explain.
You can't adopt?
You can't foster?
Find a family in your community ...adopt that family!

Adoption of all kinds makes ALL the difference! 


  1. So beautiful. She's come so far! What size is she wearing now? I would love it if you would post a picture of all the kids with their names/ages (or separate posts). I pick them up here and there as I read but am not sure I know who each one is!

    Sue H.

    1. Great suggestion Sue...thank you for reading and for your support.

  2. I read your posts and blogs, look at your pictures, and thank God you have a passion to save these children. Thank you for responding in faith. I know you are being blessed beyond measure for your sacrifice. I am often feeling the "pull" in my heart to save a child when I read your posts and blogs. I often feel guilt for not responding. And then I came to a realization today as I pondered these thoughts...as a school teacher in a poverty stricken school with high academic and behavior needs, I see that I AM saving children. Every day I love and teach these kids with broken homes. Some are homeless. Sometimes I get kicked, yelled at, or my classroom gets trashed. These are the kids that need me. Thank you for reminding me that I AM saving children. God calls us to serve in many, many ways. All we need to do is RESPOND.

    1. Christine. THANK YOU!! for what you do every day...you are so needed and under appreciated. I have no doubt you are making a difference....probably some days the only bright spot of hope in these kids lives. <3

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